I DON'T WANT TO SAY GOODBYE.

you know who you are

why does this feel so familiar?

last night was perfect. we really needed that.

it felt so right being together, with you holding my hand and kissing my forehead.

she was there, but that didn't matter. it was only you and i in the room and it's all we cared about.

it felt so surreal, but it was acknowledged that we were together.

you were mine for the night, and i was yours.

that night reminded us of what we both want.

to have each other's hearts.

and i realize it's going to be okay.

where are you

without you i'd be miserable at best

"Normal memories were still dangerous. If I let myself slip up, I’d end up with my arms clutching my chest to hold it together, gasping for air."

controversy

that overused expression:
" maybe he's the one for me, but i'm not the one for him. "
Dear God. I hope its not true.

i whip ma hair back and forth

 

i want an ombre. so bad.

forever just ain't no thang

i will always love you.

haunted

my dreams were clouded with images of your face last night.
your empty promises. the future we painted together. it was all there.
your face haunts me today. the sound of your voice echoes in my thoughts.
its breaking me.
mind racing, eyes burning, heart beating.
sweet dreams, i'll see you tonight.

three

your too independent to miss someone.
sexual, but no one night stand lies in your bed.
commitment? the future? these questions cannot be asked.
your status makes you feel dominant.
you have a strong sense of masculine pride. it is repulsive.
if you could see what is in front of you, you would see how beautiful she is.
but you want to be taken care of.
this is what you think is attractive.

i recognize you from somewhere.

we met a long time ago, do you remember?

you introduce yourself to me and the thrill is on.

the excitement of seeing each other is hidden behind every smile.

tension, attraction, yes. it lingers there in the room.

so does my embarrassment; the sting as if i have been slapped.

she wouldn't appreciate it if she knew.

neither would i if you were mine.

after days of waiting to hear from you, i see your name.
this may just make my day.
wrong.
have i talked to your ex.. what do you think.
you have highlighted a huge insecurity.
do. not. ask how i am doing after.
i dont think you care.
it hurts a lot more to think that you could.

inconvenience

i am not convenient for you.

no guilt. no apologies. no acceptions. 

i am not the coward you think i am. that coward i used too be.

recognition sinks in, and i can see you clearly.

we're not the same people.

.

 but these feelings, are inconvenient.